.

like a placebo

holla blog peoples,

it's the same old shit here, it's cold, i'm bored, i have no life and so on and so forth.
i just thought you might like to know i have no life,
and that shit is boring,
and that it's the same here.


god i wish i were more extroverted.


love Ana.


p.s
i know this also makes my blog a yawn.
sorry.

p.p.s
i did not mean to be this depressing
or apathetic
or boring.
sorry again.

now that you're back from the dead.

Hello blog,

i am sincerely sorry that i abandoned you for such a long time,

but i am lazy, and disorganized, and tired,

and we always knew it would happen eventually.

hello people in new zealand,

and people in other parts of the world that follow me.

holland is rough, it's cold, and people here don't really like me much.

i keep trying to do stuff and then not being bothered.

and i just want a fucking nap!

i gots me a tumblr,

and a floral jumpsuit,

and glittery nails,

and a cat,

and a trip to paris,

and a trip to new york.

sorry frances, but i don't have a freaky boyfriend yet.

my brain is to tired to write you anything proper,
so you can have some photo's,

and the knowledge that i exist,

and I love you,

and i miss you more each day.

i hope you're all happy, and that summer is satisfying,

and that some day soon i stop feeling so jaded.

i'm a bit up and down on this trip to be honest.

but once i have a life i'm sure it'll be great.

here is jumpsuit:

and here is tumblr: http://another-memory-scarred.tumblr.com/

which is mostly for my entertainment, but you're free to look.

and here is holland:

and i cut my fringe, but anyways, here are my anils.



love ana.

ps, i also got a skype, you should get one too, then add me: Ana de pont

keep this scene inside your head.

dear blog,

i have now been in holland for 10 days,
there have been some firsts,
like walking over a lake last night,
and getting an x-ray today, because i then fell over and they thought i had broken my wrist,
there have also been some very familiar patterns,
like the fact that my curtains have been shut since i got here,
and everything in my room is overflowing with stuff.

it's been good though,
i kinda already feel at home, I've like half forgotten my parents still exist back in new zealand,
it's a little strange,
and there has been so much snow,
apparently there's going to be a lot more this weekend,
and all of Europe is running out of salt because of it, so some people have resorted to using bath salts, which apparently do work to melt snow...?
it's all completely foreign to me.

i've also already ruined a pair of my pants,
typical,
and my parents don't want to buy me new one's of the internet,
also typical.

school is ok,
not hugely interesting for the most part,
there was a somewhat interesting conversation about symbolism in pottery class yesterday with a whole bunch of Arabs,
but that's about all really,
don't really have any friends, but everyone's civil, it's all kinda meh there for me to be honest.
I suppose that probably has something to do with the fact that I'm kinda meh right now.
a meh attitude makes life meh.
meh.

ok, so i feel there is a need for some imagery, but i have not as of yet emptied my camera, so i went fishing through the copious ammounts of photo's i brought with me on my usb (by which i mean external hard drive) , here are some from around chrimbo time:

i miss you a little New Zealand,
you've never come this close to breaking my arm,
and you have people who actually want to spend time with me.

don't think i don't love it here though,
i'm going places this summer, it will be exciting.

love Ana.

take your ego for a ride.

happy new year blogspot!

of course, it's not quite the new year where i am, people have been letting of fireworks since i got here anyway.

i finally arrived in holland,
it's cold here, but there's no snow yet.
there was some in seoul however.

i'm really tired, and i think i'm going to need a nap before i attempt to stay up until midnight for new years.

i'm tired because including flying i didn't sleep for over 50 hours,
the bed in korea was hard.
but i did manage to occupy myself on the flight across europe by writing down russian place names that i found funny:
vladivostock
irkustk
novosibirsk
yekaterinburg
nizhy novgorod
szczecin
bydgoszcz
they're funny because z isn't a vowel.

and i spent four hours looking out my window at clouds, and i had a really big speal about the textures and how they reminded my of zueus' beard and women being tortured and how there where hills and valleys and sheer cliffs and massive fisures and layers that floated aroud completely disjointed from one another, but that's all i can remember from it, which is lucky really because that would have taken a lot of typing and filled my whole page but i took some photos, i would have taken more but the window was dirty and it made it hard to capture.
also people look at me like i'm crazy as it is.

and between today and yesterday i've gotten a new bike, a jacket, house keys, a bike lock, a sim card, i've signed in to leiden and i've set up my room, which i will take photos of tomorrow, and i got one free mickey mouse glove. i'll also make a list of the names of the fireworks we got for tonight becuase they are hillarious!

i also already have a mass of lego men with funny moustaches/facial hair.

ok, well i'm off to enjoy festivities and i'll post some photos soon.

love Ana

Cast Your Mind Back To The Day

Merry Christmas Blogspot,

i'm exsausted,
as per usual.

i don't know what it is about christmas, but i always want to sleep.
i guess it doesn't help that it's BOILING today,
i am so keen for winter.
on which note,
4 days.
Holland here I come.

and my party was bitchin,
people should dress like me more often.
especially Joel.
(just for those not in the know, i had a farewell party where a whole bunch of my friends dressed like me, see photo)
i know, you can't even tell which one's me!

and it was josies birthday the next day,
which was fun, and our song was just AMAZING!
and josie got a multitude of wonderful presents, including a Canon EOS 1000D, oh yes, the exact same as mine!
chrimbo was cool too,
my gifts were well recived ecetera.
i probably wont blog until i'm in Holland,
so bye for now.

Love Ana

p.s: It's my one year aniversary on Blogspot!
good stuff.

It's hard to reconcile.

Seasons Greetings Blogspot,

christmas is three days away but it somehow doesn't really feel awfully jolly round here,
there's my leaving obviously,
but then there's also that Jim Philpot (a really lovely boy from my school) was in a horrific car accident, Britany murphy died today!? and some new zealand comedian has raped a four year odl while drunk,
A 4 YEAR OLD!

I'm sure by wednsday I'll feel better about life, it's my farewell party, and i'll be well distracted on thursday, it Josephines birthday, and there will be much joy by friday, it's christmas, (which will coincedentally mark the one year aniversary of my starting this blog) but right now, on Monday, the world seems to be in the gutter.

i'm of to trial pack my bag, which just arrived in the mail,
i hope other peoples worlds are feeling more cheerful.

love Ana.